I'm pretending my smile.

I'm pretending like i look happy.

i'm pretending like i'm fine.

I'm pretending putting all the smiling emoticons.

But I'm actually crying.

I'm crying in front of the screen.

My heart hurts a lot.

I'm not fine at all.

I need you, I need you is what i actually wanted to say.

what is wrong with me?

why am i so weak?

why do i feel hurt ?

I'm not fine. I'm looking at the chatbox.

i seem like i'm fine.

i have so much to tell you, but i dont know how to say.

I dont want to spoil your mood and your day.

i kept everything inside me, pretending and pretending.

why are you not replying me when i need you
sorry , maybe i'm annoying.
how i wish you can read my mind and know what am i thinking.

all i wanted to say is, i need you now, i really need you , to be here with me.